The other day while I was at work, I got a call from our nanny. As soon as I saw her name pop up on the screen, my heart started to pound. The nanny never calls me, even when I’ve asked her to just so she can fill me in on how the day is going. So she told me that Peanut woke up from her nap with a rash all over her face. Besides that, she was super cranky and didn’t want to eat. Then I went into panic mode…what do I do? Do I leave work early and rush home? Is a sudden rash enough to warrant leaving my employer and co-workers in the lurch? I was filled with indecision. I always figured that when the call from the nanny came, it would be with news that Peanut has a 103 fever or something like that, which would make my decision very clear. There’s no question that I would drop everything and rush home then. But a rash? What does that even mean?
I called our doctor (who, unfortunately, is over an hour away from us since we moved and haven’t found a new one -which is a whole other issue since we love our pediatrician and don’t want to leave her practice…but now I’m totally off-topic…) and she said about what I expected her to say: they can’t make any kind of diagnosis without seeing her. It could be nothing or it could be something. Well, that didn’t help at all. I asked every single mom I knew at work and they all said basically the same thing. After a call to my husband and another call to the nanny, I finally decided to finish out my day at work with the promise from our nanny that she would call immediately if Peanut got a fever, started to throw up or had trouble breathing. And when I got home, the rash had mostly cleared though it was obvious that my girl was pretty miserable from a lack of sleep and just a generally bad day. We put her to bed early and the next day she was back to her usual happy self.
Whew. Crisis averted. But I’m still thinking about the decision I had to make. Am I a bad mother because I chose to stay at work for the rest of the day while my daughter was not feeling well? Am I a bad employee because I stayed at work even though my mind was on my baby and left no room to focus on my job? Yes, it turned out to be nothing but what if it was something? How am I supposed to know when to drop everything and when to trust that it’ll all be ok? What would you have done?
(And also, does anybody know if a rash is associated with teething at all? We still haven’t figured out the cause of the sudden appearance – and just as sudden disappearance – of the rash and the only thing we could think of was teething but I haven’t found anything to back that up.)